Hellooo

You may not recognise me, i haven't been on lj in so long. this is due to the rubbishness of the ill. and thus i don't really have anything to talk about as I haven't done anything. really not much at all. not even seen Carl's filmic debut. but I just thought i'd say hello and i do still read my friends page on occasion so i hope you're all doing well and stuffs. The extent of my social calender was a picnic in my friend's garden last weekend in which i ate much too much food and managed to get sunburnt. my friend's little girl who is nearly two now came and promptly managed to 'pull' the boy next door (glamorous sugar daddy of six). other than that, hmm, well i have been reading Sarah Waters' new book, editing poetry at work by adults who think they're poets but don't know where the apostrophe goes in 'haven't', oh and i finally got my doctors referral thing but haven't actually had any treatment yet... i also haven't got my internet fixed, need to buy a new laptop entirely, anybody got any laptop recommendations? my criteria is must be able to load webpages quicker than i can go downstairs and find food and then come back upstairs again, not too much to ask right?

still waiting on psych appointment. grr.

bout two weeks since my referral. and over two months since my referral for CBT. yeah don't mind me mental health professionals.



also if i have any more time off work, I exceed my 'points' for the quarter. As far as i can recall, i've had two days and two hours off this year, and even then they weren't even all in the same quarter. stoopid points system.

I shouldn't have to take overtime if I don't want to, it's not compulsory is it? *sigh*

Managing to hold down a job is difficult enough for me at the moment... But if I tell them that then they'll probably handily remove that difficulty by sacking me/not renewing my contract. I just feel like I'm being made to look like the bitch who isn't putting any effort in. gah.

WHEN we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow--
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me--
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:
Lond, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met--
In silence I grieve,
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.

WHEN WE TWO PARTED
George Gordon (Lord) Byron

few rubbish pics from Norwich Peter gig. still have intermittent internet connection so I can't upload videos but there a few screencaps from them



( You wanted to take me, so you did )

today, well yesterday, was comic relief. i bought 3 cakes at work in aid of charityness. they were yum. i'm very charitable where cake is concerned. i also got through 1 glass of wine and 5 cups of tea. kicks or consumption indeed. (not all of this at work i hasten to add, most while watching comic relief on telly at my mate's. she bought me a nose, i managed to break it whilst playing with it) 

don't know whether my tablets have made any discernable difference yet. had a bit of withdrawal symptoms from coming off fluoxetine and lots of headaches and sleepiness but then I do have that anyway. hmmm. still i'm endeavouring to pass for normal.

I has new drugs!!!!!! woooo!

ahem.

isn't reading the list of possible side effects fun? Difficulty in sleeping and agitation often occur Well difficulty in sleeping would probably be beneficial at work cos I hear you're not supposed to nod off there.


also, i'd kinda like to do a date on Peter's tour with Graham Coxon on it. more than one date could be too ambitious though... i don't know

Last week I went to see Kaiser Chiefs at Nottingham Arena. they were awesome. i know they're not very cool or nme but i love them. i bounced and danced and sang and well, i may have been a bit drunk. From embarassingly little alcohol too. i was on the house wine as it was cheaper than a spirit and a mixer and god it was vile, yet strangely addictive. i may have alienated my not-that-fussed-about-kaiser-chiefs friend slightly with my enthusiasm as she was just stood back from me at the edge (we were kinda frontish, far-right) while I went for it on me own but FUN.

Can't remember the setlist (see aforementioned wine) but I think they played a pretty even mix of all three albums. Very pleased to still have Modern Way in there and good to hear ones I hadn't heard live before like Good Days and Bad Days, which I didn't really like at first but has grown on me. Ricky did a bit of scaffolding climbing and also went out to the sound desk thingy (i forget if that's what you call it) in the crowd. And to finish was the extended crowd singalong of Oh My God. I was very knackered at work the next day.




( you can take my temperature... )

eee!

just watched peteandcarl being cosy at the nme awards

*spazzes*

have finally booked doctors appointment, woooo.

i hate doctors but fuckin need to see one. 's not fair on everyone around me having to put up with this shit.


also, on the bus, there was a man with a very rural proper Whittlesey accent (where like is pronounced loiyk) talking about finding the dead body of someone called 'Cowboy Steve'.

This girl that I went to primary school with and who used to go out with Alex Turner is now going out with one of the Kings of Leon! she also got her band's demos produced by Anthony of DPT!

man, all i've got since leaving primary school is bad skin and a mental illness.

As my friend Jen said 'well. imagine. i remember when her tooth fell out in the middle of mrs hills maths class'

I really need to go see a doctor.

If I post it here then maybe I'll do it. um...



Just doing work to make up for being late due to road rubbishness and reading a load of stories by primary school kids and this one cheered me somewhat:

(spelling misktakes child's own)

It was a good day in mariow land beose peachs boyfriend was coming to see her. She was exsited and she put her best dress on and shoes and she put her hair up. She put her makeup on and there was her boyfriend at the door withe some flowers

ah romance

I'm so easily amused...

where I work, we produce a couple of kids' magazines about creative writing and many months ago I got to write a couple of pages for one of them, which had to be about grammar and unexciting things like that. About a month after the magazine should have been published (we hadn't got enough money to get it printed but shh) I finally got a copy of it last week and I was reminded of what I had put in it to amuse myself: ( How to make a sentence )

Also we have had lots of snow, I had the day off on Thursday due to there being no buses and then on Friday I went to work and then got sent home at half 10 after it had snowed all morning and then they thought we might get snowed in. Good in a way, but now I'm doing all the work that I didn't do at home. except for now, when i'm not.

I just watched Mamma Mia again. ah what a great rubbish film

anyways, meme snaffled from madam_ray

( The winner takes it all... )

On Thursday it was my birthday and in honour of this, myself and my friends Han and Jen went to Cambridge for the day. We did what anyone would do on a wet January day; we went PUNTING!!

This was helped by the fact that Han had met up with her friend who used to do this for a living and therefore actually knew what he was doing and successfully guided us down the river Cam to the amusement of many tourists who took lots of photos of us. Me and Han also attempted punting, well Han did, I just sort of stood there and managed to make it go backwards...

As I got a new camera for my birthday, (with 12mp and an entirely useful 'food' setting), here are pictures:



 

( Aboard the good ship Albion )

I had birthday cake and lots of tea. Then when I went to work the next day, they had also bought me a cake, so lots of cake was had.

Also I purchased a Peter Doherty Norwich ticket!

 

I've seen the advert for the 24hrs with Pete Doherty thing. Camp hoovering! kittens! and offering to make tea! it looks adorable.

i cans to be having tickets for solo tour naow? probs be on me ownsome but even just one gig would be nice.

also, i had my hair cut today, i hate having my hair cut.

How many people spent yesterday following around a bear made of straw? No? Shame on you.

For the uninitiated, yesterday was the Straw Bear Festival in Whittlesey, which is a tradition ressurected from some kind of ye olde pagan festival wherein a man dresses up as a bear by attaching large amounts of straw to his body and leads a procession through town followed by a various troupes of morris dancers who then dance for a bit on the market sqare and then everyone follows the bear on its journey round all the pubs in Whittlesey. It's basically an excuse to drink all day.



( Like a walking hay bale )

man, i'm quite drunk. which is not good when you have to get up in the morning for.... a day of drinking. i also need to wash my hair.  bugger. but the merriness numbing my mind somewhat = WIN

It being the end of the year, I thought I'd do a sort of review.

This year's good stuffs include (in no particular order):

 

Getting out of a job I hated and getting a new job which was much more what I wanted to do

Going to V festival for free, seeing Kaiser Chiefs and The Charlatans therein and lounging in the hospitality area

Being a surrogate auntie

Seeing DPT 4 times and getting to meet them

Meeting charming people from LJ at aforementioned gigs

Making new friends at my new job

Having blurbs and forewords that I have written published in books (that no one will read but no matter)

Seeing The Cribs, The Subways and The Pigeon Detectives

Getting (and becoming dependent on) my mp3 player

Seeing Carl and Didz 'DJ'

Other things I have done this year:

 

Start wearing glasses (well sort of)

Drank lots of tea

Read The Great Gatsby

Used my LJ more often

Drank more wine

Held £10,000 in my hand

Fell upstairs in a club whilst drunk

Acquired a plant

Broken a phone

Realised I have nothing in common with certain old friends

Fell in lust

Watched Merlin a lot

 

 

And that's my review done :)